The girl behind the mask

IM BACK!! i decided to bring my blog out from the dust into the blogging world again...whoop di do.. ( doing the victory dance) ok note to self....change blog page layout...


Updates later...

Have you ever felt like you have to put on different masks evryday just to please someone or to disguise how you actually feel? During work, i learnt that i have to always put on a smile even if im talking on the phone no matter how freaking tired i was or how my feet ache from the wrong choice of footwear to the long hours of standing or how nasty the customer maybe, we just have to swallow it put on a stupid plastic smile. it sucks. but i guess no one wants a grumpy person to serve you.


work aside. i feel the constant need to put on a mask to disguise my feelings. I think i just have this problem of not being able to say no to someone ( dear friends, pls dont use this against me) lol. So even if i mind or dont want to do it, i'll just do it. i know rite. what a pushover!. Ok maybe sometimes i might mind but if you are someone dear to me. i would go the extra mile for you. But it would certainly be nice if you could show some appreciation once in a while. Like maybe i dont know say thank you maybe? Oh but you may think i didnt sacrifice that much or go the extra mile for you. But i felt that i did. doesnt evryone want to feel loved once in a while? So if you have not tell your friends how much they meant to you, or how much you appreciate them or how much you love them...tell them! whoever said that the four lettered words are only meant for couples. Even there are times when you see like teenagers prancing around in their Coach handbags or sometimes just shopping with friends, i cant help but feel envious. When will i ever reach that stage where you flip the price tag and not feel like crap. But i just have to chant to myself be thankful for what you have. Nonetheless, i LOVE my parents to death although they maybe all nagg-y and annoying at times.They gave up luxuries of life like travelling overseas to provide for me and my sisters. So i shan't be ungrateful which is why i decided to take up a part time job so that my parents wont need to give me an allowance. There are also times when someone passes me a hurtful remark, i just laugh it off. it hurts even deeper. Or the times i say stuff to please ppl or more less lie? ok maybe just deviate a lil from the truth? But aiya who doesnt to do that to get acceptance into a group of friends or just so the person will like you. What a cruel world we live in. But i guess these are just part and parcels of the big old thing call L-I-F-E. Sucks socks but oh well...


I'm sure im not the only one who puts on a mask, i do hope u share my lament or i might be going crazy? I just hope that behind all these masks, i will not get lost in these masks and lose who i truly am. Basically that would be like a soul-less person.


But are we living a fulfilling life living behind the mask? i'll let you ponder on that......


Here's a little someone i can totally count on to be there for me!

my honey munchkins, POTATO pie.... the poor thing needs a haircut!

We have a very complicated relationship. Trust me. I'll just save it for another time.

So dear friends, if i have not told you that i love you.. this is a BIG MUAX and i love you!!