The girl behind the mask

IM BACK!! i decided to bring my blog out from the dust into the blogging world again...whoop di do.. ( doing the victory dance) ok note to self....change blog page layout...


Updates later...

Have you ever felt like you have to put on different masks evryday just to please someone or to disguise how you actually feel? During work, i learnt that i have to always put on a smile even if im talking on the phone no matter how freaking tired i was or how my feet ache from the wrong choice of footwear to the long hours of standing or how nasty the customer maybe, we just have to swallow it put on a stupid plastic smile. it sucks. but i guess no one wants a grumpy person to serve you.


work aside. i feel the constant need to put on a mask to disguise my feelings. I think i just have this problem of not being able to say no to someone ( dear friends, pls dont use this against me) lol. So even if i mind or dont want to do it, i'll just do it. i know rite. what a pushover!. Ok maybe sometimes i might mind but if you are someone dear to me. i would go the extra mile for you. But it would certainly be nice if you could show some appreciation once in a while. Like maybe i dont know say thank you maybe? Oh but you may think i didnt sacrifice that much or go the extra mile for you. But i felt that i did. doesnt evryone want to feel loved once in a while? So if you have not tell your friends how much they meant to you, or how much you appreciate them or how much you love them...tell them! whoever said that the four lettered words are only meant for couples. Even there are times when you see like teenagers prancing around in their Coach handbags or sometimes just shopping with friends, i cant help but feel envious. When will i ever reach that stage where you flip the price tag and not feel like crap. But i just have to chant to myself be thankful for what you have. Nonetheless, i LOVE my parents to death although they maybe all nagg-y and annoying at times.They gave up luxuries of life like travelling overseas to provide for me and my sisters. So i shan't be ungrateful which is why i decided to take up a part time job so that my parents wont need to give me an allowance. There are also times when someone passes me a hurtful remark, i just laugh it off. it hurts even deeper. Or the times i say stuff to please ppl or more less lie? ok maybe just deviate a lil from the truth? But aiya who doesnt to do that to get acceptance into a group of friends or just so the person will like you. What a cruel world we live in. But i guess these are just part and parcels of the big old thing call L-I-F-E. Sucks socks but oh well...


I'm sure im not the only one who puts on a mask, i do hope u share my lament or i might be going crazy? I just hope that behind all these masks, i will not get lost in these masks and lose who i truly am. Basically that would be like a soul-less person.


But are we living a fulfilling life living behind the mask? i'll let you ponder on that......


Here's a little someone i can totally count on to be there for me!

my honey munchkins, POTATO pie.... the poor thing needs a haircut!

We have a very complicated relationship. Trust me. I'll just save it for another time.

So dear friends, if i have not told you that i love you.. this is a BIG MUAX and i love you!!

ihateherihateherihateherihateherihateherihateherihateherihateher SADDIST!!! HEART-LESS!!!ADOLF HITLER!!!!

dear classmates can we pls sign a petition against her!???

I HATE HER! I HATE HER!

who says stuff like good luck in your supp paper when u have not even sat for finals yet!
who says stuff like i dont mind if all my students fail?

Are you REJOICING in OUR misery?

This is OUR climb

I dedicate this song to evyrone who is facing their final examinations.....




"The Climb"

I can almost see it.
That dream I'm dreaming,
butThere's a voice inside my head saying
You'll never reach it
Every step I'm takin'
Every move I make
Feels lost with no direction,
My faith is shakin'
But I gotta keep tryin'
Gotta keep my head held high
There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be an uphill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose
Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waitin' on the other side
It's the climb
The struggles I'm facing
The chances I'm taking
Sometimes might knock me down,
butNo I'm not breakingI may not know it, but
These are the moments thatI'm gonna remember most
I've just gotta keep goin', and
I gotta be strong
Just keep pushing on, but
There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be an uphill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose
Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waitin' on the other side
It's the climb
There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be an uphill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose
Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waitin' on the other side
It's the climb
Keep on movin'
Keep climbin'
Keep faith baby
It's all about, it's all about
The climb
Keep the faith, keep your faith, woah


Wishing evryone all the best in their upcoming exams!

p/s: i still find miley cyrus's voice annoying. ignore the voice n read the lyrics.LOL

P.M.S.

Talk about P.M.S------> a real pain in the ass!
Something thats maybe a tiny ant bite will seem like the end of the world for me!
equals to as nickylicious refers to ' shutters all close' gloomy me!

The big day is coming where im officially a year older but im dreading it. No birthday is worth celebrating if not with family and close friends. But life's unfair. You dont get what you want.

but i had a conversation with Kuen and she made me come to my senses more,

SkY~N KuEN (R) - says:Well, there're things that you cannot judge based on one situation only right??

(*) SkY~N KuEN (R) - says:hehe.... cuz in chinese saying, things can only happen when the the time is right, the ppl is right, and the day is right... ( something like tht la.. i suck in translation)

(*) SkY~N KuEN (R) - says:it doesnt mean that your close friends dun care about you anymore even though they cant make it...

(*) SkY~N KuEN (R) - says:it's not tht they dun love you anymore when they cant make it..

(*) SkY~N KuEN (R) - says:i knw in this important day, you wish to have ur loved ones together with you... but there are times that things doesnt happend according to what you expect, just like the stupid aseptic class test.

(*) SkY~N KuEN (R) - says:gal, cheer up... it doesnt mean that i dont love you anymore...

(*) SkY~N KuEN (R) -says:it doesnt mean tht i dun care for you anymore...

(*) SkY~N KuEN (R) says:deep in my heart, you still stay.. :)
(*) SkY~N KuEN (R) - says:i knw i may sound like i'm giving excuse.... but trust me, i am not. what i meant and what i wrote is totally from the bottom of my heart

I LOVE YOU TOO KUEN! thanks for always having the right things to say and giving me the slap i need! i know u guys wanna be there ( haha im gonna believe it!) i understand k? so now to make up for it i want a BIG present!this applies also to nickylicious and tan swee leen!! LOL just kidding! anyways i still love u guys!

I wish that we will all do well in this coming fri's biotech quiz and in finals! and nickylicious in his EOS5! (blows candles)


here's a lil something for the guys and girls to laugh about......

Of Zeroes.

Pharmacy life has been D-U-L-L. study.eat.sleep.exams and the cycle repeats. Today we had our aseptic dispensing lab examination. Lucky me i got the first batch to take the exam. We had to prepare eye-drops and multidose vial for injection. Both prescription had problems which i thought was CRAZY! and we had to do aseptic technique for the vial ( a sterilization method which requires a lot of time) So basically THERE WAS NOT ENOUGH TIME! Ten minutes left on the clock and i started mixing the solution for vial. So i said TO HELL with the aseptic technique and just poured evrything into the bottle provided. Probably contaminated like mad. haha. I hope im not scaring off potential customers of my pharmacy. I assure u i only do this during examinations. LOL.

Nevertheless....the final outcome..first time ever screwing dispensing that badly..i obtained two ZEROES...
I got the concentration wrong for the first prescription = Zero
I did not change the signa for the second prescription = Zero

Who knew Dr.Y would confuse us with so many problems in one prescription!
WHERE GOT ENOUGH TIME to figure evrything out, write the report and do the preparation for you!

Ive come to a conclusion, knowledge is not enough, u need time management, the ability to remain calm despite the time ticking away and LOADS OF LUCK in order to pass!

Bright side: we still have finals to make up for our mistakes!

STRIVE UNCEASINGLY!

Dont Judge a Book by its cover.

So u're probably wondering who's this woman is right? The priest in my church mentioned her in his sermon. This is the perfect lesson to be learnt when it comes to judging a person based on their appearance.
So watch this video on this link and u'll understand what im talking about..../http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RxPZh4AnWyk

Ipoh.

Yes im still in Ipoh. A short trip back to Ipoh for cheng beng turned out to be a long one. why? well it was initially an appendicitis scare but it turned out to be a viral infection. Its a good thing! the thought of surgery freaks me out! minus the severe stomache, nausea and vomitting. Thank you dear friends for all your calls and sms-es. I'm gonna be alright. i'll be returning to suck-fest KL tmr and so try not to miss me too much ya! LOL

April Fool's Day reminds me of Lava. Cos its her birthday. haha. Happy Birthday Lava all the way in India! It also reminds me of that year when we played an april fool's prank on our teachers back in secondary school where we switched classes. It took them sometime to realise that they were teaching the wrong class. I rmbr a teacher even stood outside the class looking puzzled to make sure she was in the right class (puan Khalijah) . that was just hilarious.


OK im disgusted to admit im a shopaholic series fan. i have NOT watch the movie eventhough i anticipated it the moment i found out that there was going to be a movie (long story=do not wish to talk bout it) and i dont think im going to watch it anytime soon. so if you have watched it, DONT talk to me bout it,i dont want to know. and DONT drool over LUKE BRANDON in front of me.

i'll just satisfy my hunger by reading...

uh huh yeah rite.....

SPOTTED!

Spotted.....

Krispy Kreme in Midvalley, Lower Ground Floor... :)

April Fool's coming too early Part 2

Turns out i was not the only one who was a victim to this lame prank, my housemate's shoes were also taken ( Thank god! i mean thank god cos i thought it was like some revenge against me or sth!) SO NOT FUNNY!

But guess what...me and shee hui(housemate) was going down for a swim today evening, for some reason i looked to the left side of my neighbour's roof ( i checked it on the day i lost my shoe) and to my surprise i found one of shoe on the roof. OMG! it was out of reach! i had mixed feelings both angry and excited to find my Primeveras...we knocked on the neighbours door for help..but was turned down. So i thought i'll figure something out later and went to the lift to go down for a swim. While waiting for the lift, i looked out of the window..wasnt sure if it was my imagining things..but i saw a pair white shoes on the bigger roof all the way down at the 14th floor (im on the 24th floor) My instant reaction was to call my housemate to ask if those belong to her because it was not mine. True enough they were hers. A**HOLE!

So the craziest thing we did by far, we went down to the 14th floor, and my housemate climbed onto the roof to retrieve her shoes which were at the edge of the roof! i just stood there bitting my nails praying nothing would happened while she climb the roof like a catwoman! haha really! THANK GOD she got her shoes! safe and sound...anf thankfully no one saw us after they might think that she was trying to commit suicide...that would have been funny....

The mood to swim...all gone..i decided that its time to save my shoe on the other side...went back up and came out with a broom and the stick we use to dry our clothes! but it was not long enough to reach for the shoe..... then suddenly it hit me...i could tie the two sticks together to reach for the shoe! using that girl guide knoe which i forgot the name of it? was it whipping or dead man's knot? the knot we used to build our flag pole?

anyways...i tied it using some parcel strings and some rafia strings...

a bit messy but not too bad for a retired girl guide! LOL..i never expect that i will be using my girl guide's knowledge outside school what more to save my shoe! LOL!

My shoes are finally reunited though with some scratches...

My crocs are still missing....

I CURSE THE PERSON(S) WHO DID IT TO DEATH!!!

but i think someday i will think back n laugh about this....

YES I LOVE MY SHOES!

on a lighter note....im babysitting my baby potato for two weeks... :)

'You're my sunshine on a cloudy day'

April Fool's coming too early

I think u might find it amusing...but i dont! SOMEONE FUCKING STOLE MY SHOES!
i have not told u the best part yet...whoever it is took only one side of each pair! Now im left with one side of a shoes! WHAT THE HELL AM I SUPPOSE TO DO WITH ONE SIDE OF A SHOE!
IM SO PISSED and upset....n ITS ONLY MY SHOES THAT GOT STOLEN!!!!!

Im a bloody jinx... God if u r testing me.. I GIVE UP! i raise the white flag!
Friends, if u r playing a cruel joke on me... it really isnt funny...pls return my shoes...

im sorry if offended anyone...tell me if i did..i'll apologise..just pls return my shoes!


yes im desperate... u've taken my shoes n all i have left is slippers... like i could turn up for lectures in those! SIGH

Damn Nose!

I dont know why...whether its me having to wake up in the wee hours to send my sister to work, or the sleepless night during mid terms or was it last night i stayed up when i had to rush do my lab report last minute which was due today turned out to be a report with an explosion of calculation that nearly drove me insane or i got Kuen's bug or the erratic weather..i got the flu again. I just recovered from it last week and i woke up today with a leaky faucet. Its irritating as hell! I cant even tell anymore if its just the normal sinus problem or is it the flu. whatever it is, it is annoying! Woke up late for morning class, rushed and pop a Clarinase and swallowed it down with a cup of coffee ( i wonder if it is contraindicated with caffeine). Dr. Rao was already giving his lecture when i arrived, i sat at my usual spot waiting for the Clarinase to take its effect. There i was sniffling all the way, not only was i irritated with my nose, i was feeling so drained..i could barely concentrate during Anti-microbial. I felt drowsy. Clarinase is suppose to be NON-DROWSY! Apparently i am desensitized to Clarinase! ( shows how often i take them!) I think i need to switch to Loratadine. Urgh i need a nose transplant.

Anyways, earlier this week, we went for a movie after Biotech. Watched Marley and Me!

It wasa story about a labrador ( clearance puppy) who was absolutely incorrigible! Cute and affectionate nonetheless! The ending was just heartwrenching and I cried.The whole story just made me think of my dog, Benji. I love this quote from the movie 'A dog doesn't care if you're rich or poor, educated or illiterate, clever or dull. Give him your heart and he will give you his. So if i end up to being alone or a spinster or whatever...i'll definitely be an old lady with loads of dogs ( not cats! not pigeons!) LOL...they are so loyal and lovable creatures!

Grace asked me what i wanted for my birthday! I WANT A PUPPY! i know its impossible! and NO im not hinting to anyone! and i cant wait to play with swee leen's new poodle pup! sigh im dying to go home!

Missing potato!

We had two days of no lectures right after! That never happens!! Went to Redbox, Gardens

We sang, we croaked, we shouted, we screamed........

tricia, grace, me and shereen

tricia, kuen and ker li

the part i remembered most...

We unconciously screamed real aloud when we sang Simple Plan's How Could this happen to me?

' Im sick of this life, i Just want to scream! HOW COULD THIS HAPPEN TO ME?'

We must be some depressing bunch of pharmacy students....haha great times!

Well, its back to the normal hectic schedule again....

JUST STAND UP!

I was studying when suddenly this song played on my windows media player. I never really took notice of the lyrics but today i did. It is beautifully written and very meaningful. You can apply this song in whatever situation u r in...dont give up! JUST STAND UP!

p/s: i think miley cyrus totally ruined the song! she has such an annoying voice! LOL thank god she only had a few lines to sing




Just Stand Up Lyrics

ALL:
Every thing will be alright
Rihanna:yeah
Beyonce:
The heart is stronger
Than you think
It's like it can go
Through anything
And even when you think
It can't it finds a way
To still push on
Though

Carrie Underwood:
Sometimes
You want to run away
Ain't got the patience
For the pain
And if you
Don't believe it
Look into
Your heart
The beat goes on

Rihanna:
I'm tellin' you

Miley Cyrus:
Things get better
Through whatever

Rihanna:
If you fall

Miley Cyrus:
Dust it off
Don't let up

Sheryl Crow:
Don't you know
You can go
Be your own miracle

Beyonce:
You need to know...

Chorus (Sheryl Crow):
If the mind
Keeps thinking
You've had enough
But the heart
Keeps telling you
Don't give up

Sheryl Crow/Beyoncé:
Who are we to be
Questioning
Wondering what is what
Don't give up
Through it all
Just stand up

Fergie:
It's like
We all have better days
Problems getting all up
In your face

Leona Lewis:
Just because
You go through it

Fergie:
Don't mean it got
To take control, no

Leona Lewis:
You ain't gotta find
No hiding place

Keyshia Cole:
Because the heart
Can beat the hate

Leona Lewis:
Don't wanna
Let your mind
Keep playin' you

Keyshia Cole:
And sayin' you
Can't go on

Rihanna:
I'm tellin' you

Miley Cyrus:
Things get better
Through whatever

Rihanna:
If you fall

Miley Cyrus:
Dust if off
Don't let up

LeAnn Rimes:
Don't you know you

Natasha Bedingfield:
Can go

LeAnn Rimes:
Be your own

Natasha Bedingfield:
Miracle

Carrie Underwood:
You need to know

[Chorus-All]
If the mind
Keeps thinking
You've had enough
But the heart
Keeps telling you
Don't give up
Who are we to be
Questioning
Wondering what is what
Don't give up
Through it all
Just stand up

Mary J. Blige:
You don't gotta be
A prisoner
In your mind

Ciara:
If you fall
Dust it off

Mary J. Blige:
You can live your life

Rihanna/Carrie Underwood:
Yeah

Mary J. Blige:
Let your heart
Be your guide

Rihanna/Carrie:
Yeah, yeah, yeah

Mariah Carey:
And you will know
That you're good
If you trust in the good

Ashanti:
Everything
Will be alright, yeah
Light up the dark
If you follow your heart

Mary J. Blige:
And it will get better

Mariah Carey:
Through whatever

[Chorus-All]
If the mind
Keeps thinking
You've had enough
But the heart
Keeps telling you
Don't give up
Who are we to be
Questioning
Wondering what is what
Don't give up
Through it all
Just stand up

Fergie:
You got it in you
Find it within
You got in ya
Find it within now
You got in you
Find it within
You got in ya
Find it within now
You got in you
Find it within
You got it in you
Find it within
Find it within you
Find it within

Through It All, Just Stand Up!

Ive been busy with assignments, mid terms and lab reports if you are wondering where have i disappeared to! Sem 4 is aboslutely crazy!

anyways...i was watching a recap of last year's american idol and my sister pointed out that there was this contestant that looks a LOT like patrick dempsey.

Luke Menard Patrick Dempsey

Unfortunately they are both married! haha...damn!

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My dear best friend,

You mean a whole lot to me...ive told u a million times u r like family to me ,

I hate it that im trying not to depend on you.. cos i know soon u will be leaving and probably never coming back.

there'll probably be an emptiness...like how i feel now..

cos u r the one person i want to tell evrything to...the one person i want to tell bout my day...the one person i seek comfort in.

I miss talking to you...i miss having you as my best friend...

but i want you to be happy..

and i'll never stop caring about you...

i hope you know that..

love ya loads.....

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Uni's been absolutely hectic! Thanks Kuen for being my positive light! Everyone needs a dose of kuen's positive attitude! Sem 4 is definitely testing my love for pharmacy! Nonetheless, i shall not give up! Sorry to my dear friends for not keeping in touch with you!

Pulmonary, Renal and Pharmacotherapy and Biotechnology...i seriously hate you very much... but i shall give my best shot to understand you! oh dear lord...keep me strong!

to my dear classmates....keep holding on....

Valentines

Bring out the flowers, bring out the teddies and evrything cute and pink...Valentine's Day is here...

Never really got to experience what it was like to have a valentine...but hey at least u get to save the cash and buy YOURSELF a valentines treat....

Hey CLEO magazine said if u r single, go PAMPER YOURSELF on valentines day! so instead of spending it on manicures, pedicures and facials... I bought two twilight sagas in a row...might be a bit compulsive..definitely dug a huge hole in my pocket... but i get to spend valentines with edward cullen...what more can i ask for! haha

So dear friends,

If you do have a valentine, have a great one, n as for the single ones...go ahead n pamper yourself!

Happy Valentines Day!

except to you who was suppose to be my best friend..

Thank you

Recently i seem to be watching movies of the same theme. Friendship. First it was Grey's Anatomy...Meredith and Christina how they needed each other. Then in Private Practice, Cooper and Violet, when Violet got pregnant, Cooper moved in to stay with Violet to take care of her. Lastly. yesterday i went to watch Bride Wars, a much awaited movie as i was a fan of Anne Hathaway. A story of two best friends having their wedding day on the same day. It got me just thinking about my own friends....

i want to just take this opportunity to say a BIG thank you to my dear friends for being there for me especially during my lonely chinese new year...

Thank you Grace Yen for the surprise package of chinese new year cookies with the lovely message! I was so...touched i cried...

Dear Grace, thank you for always being there for me and for all the words of encouragement n for all the reassuring hugs. For always pushing me back to the right track when i go the wrong direction and for cheering me up when i was sad. You make uni a less horrible place to be in...love you!!

Thank you kui choo for the cookies that
you baked...i certainly loved it and was glad i didnt die of food poisoning. haha just kidding! not forgetting thank you to jenny, poh xuan, angie, pauline and you too kui choo for the chinese new year cards with the touching messages. oh yes! n for the reunion stemboat! yum yum! love you guys so much!!




Last but not least my dear friends from ipoh,swee leen and jennifer for opening your house to me during the first day of chinese new year... thank you for always being there, for all ur love and care. For just being friends i can rely on when i need help, even when i couldnt write my essay (haha!) muah! love you guys!

Who needs to be popular or 'fit in' when you have friends that genuinely care and love you!

i feel truly blessed!

National Service

I was flipping through some channels on tv when suddenly a channel caught my attention...It was some movie on national service. U heard me right! a movie on national service! The first thing that came into my mind...omg they are getting desperate! To my absolute horror! the movie was filmed in my campsite, Kem Sentosa, Chenderiang, Tapah. Go ahead laugh..laugh all you want... YES i was the 'lucky' few chosen for national service.

The next thing i know...my friend, Zul from national service gave me a miss call. So i actually sat thru the whole movie. It brought back many fond memories i had in national service. OKay so if you asked me bout national service i would have said it was horrible, the food was not edible, there was NO HOT WATER! But overall i had fun and went thru many experiences that never in my life i would ever do. I bet swee leen would laugh at me saying this.

The moment i arrived at the campsite..i totally felt i was in jail. I went into the dorm..and it seems to me the malay girls were grouped to one corner of the dorm. the chinese one side and the indian another corner! ( so much for their goal of racial harmony) i was of course a ' lain-lain' neither here nor there...so where was i to sleep? any empty bed available. I felt like crying! The first culture shock...NO ONE SPOKE ENGLISH! i remember asking the girl next to me if she knew the time...but she couldnt understand me...! Dont we all learn english in school?? During mealtime, we each had a metal plate, a pair of cutlerys and a plastic cup. We kept them in our locker. Brought it down evrytime we want to eat. Like jail right? The first week was just unbearable and i was constantly thinking of home...and you guys went to genting without me!! SOBS!

Eventually i made friends...actually a lot of friends. I got used to evrything there, then it didnt seem so bad anymore. We went thru loads of physical activities like the obstacle course ( i faked a migraine to skip it LOL!) flying fox,kayak-ing, taekwondo and marching (URGH), got thrown into the dark jungle with only 2 torchlights for a company of 40 and learnt how to use the compass. We had to applied all our knowledge we learnt in our last activity before we 'graduate' from national service. We were again thrown into the jungle with a compass and suppose to find our way to the campsite using our compass. Unfortunately i was the leader a.k.a compass holder! i didnt get lost k!! haha thats also cause we were the last to leave...so there were tracks left behind by the other companies! HAHA!

I think the best eye opening experience is during community service. We got to visit rural areas and contribute our part to society through 'gotong-royong'. I got to feel what it was like to live in the kampung and felt the 'togetherness' among the neighbours, it was like a big family. Their kind hospitality and generosity makes u feel at home.

So you see...national service has its bad parts and also its good parts...but overall its an enriching experience that is hard to forget...i still remember it like it was yesterday...

For those who are looking to lose weight and wants to get a tan...look no further..i think national service is the best place for you! haha...

There will be NO pictures of me during national service...! but...

* i dream of being with you forever* I HEART EDWARD CULLEN!!

im officially hooked.............

Social Outcast.

hello! hello!
wishing evryone a prosperous happy ox new year!

I managed to go back for chinese new year on sat evening. Battled the jam. A journey back to ipoh would normally take about 2 hours took me nearly four and a half hours to reach home. I think i had the most depressing chinese new year ever!
I went back to kl on tuesday and also battled the jam. Missed out on everything that is and had happened in ipoh. Not that anyone remembered me to include me. I guess it would be better to remain oblivious.

What am i doing in kl? i took what ever ang pow money i gained this year ( EXTREMELY PATHETIC) and finally bought twilight( i have not even watch the movie! i jus recently only found out that the vampire guy was cedric diggory guy!! OMG i know...lol). yesh...im extremely slow. i guess i finally found the time to read.

I hope you had an enjoyable chinese new year! Feel free to pay pathetic me a visit in kl...but sorrylah im not eligible to give out ang pows!

Angry and bitter

I dont like responsibility.
I dont like being a pushover.
I dont like being taken advantage of.
I dont like. i dont like.
Yet after everything ive done. its still not enough.
No thank you. NO appreciation. But ask for MORE.
Im angry.
Im extremely upset.
But no one to turn to.
No one to understand my situation.

Im barely coming back for chinese new year.
I hope you will enjoy your chinese new year.
I know im not going to.

Happy Chinese New Year.

Christmas In Singapore

Boo hoo...Semester 4 started today! Time really does flies. Next thing i know i'll be preparing for finals. Well at least it'll nearer towards graduation.

This is a long overdue post! My trip to singapore!

Day 1: Sentosa Island

First Stop!

The MerlionAs bimbo-ish as i sound, i had no idea that it was half mermaid half lion before i came to singapore. lol.

2nd stop: The Images of Singapore

I thought that was nice. I was quite impressed and i got to know Singapore better through this wax museum.

3rd stop: Luge

I absolutely loved it! they were right when they said once is never enough! Its somewhat like a go-kart but its not. haha. I got my adrenaline all pumping! My parents were to chicken to try it so we got to play twice! Wee! no pics though!

4th stop: Tiger Skytower

A slow ride all the way to the top and it rotates so you can get a view of sentosa island and Singapore. I didnt particularly liked it...cause i was still hyped up from Luge and i had to sit through this slow ride. AGONY! n there was narration. No idea what the person was talking about. haha.

5th Stop & 6th Stop: The 3-D show and 4-D show!

I absolutely loved this! it was so much of fun with water squirting effects and wind blowing on ur neck and feet and of course the motion master. i high recommend you to choose this two as part of ur package! you wont regret it! Though the lines were very long. It was definitely worth the wait!

Last but not least, we went for Songs of the Sea. Not too bad. I personally feel that the musical fountain in Mines Wonderland is nicer! Maybe coz at that time, i was so exhausted i just wanted to go home! haha!

Christmas atmosphere in Vivocity

to be continued tomorrow....yawn....

Happy New Year 2009!!!

HAPPY NEW YEAR 2009!!!!!!

Cheers to you and you and you!

May God Bless us all with love, tolenrance, strength and wisdom throughout this bull of a year! :)

and

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEAREST MUMMY!

We spent new years after church in aunty june's home and celebrated mum's birthday.... me and my sisters made a birthday cake out of cupcakes...haha cute right?